Nothing More Than Feelings

For every high there is a low.

Sucks, right?

I started my journey back to school this month with Western Governors University for Interdisciplinary Studies (K-8) and am so damn happy to be back in the classroom (even if it is self-paced and totally online)! It allows me to study on my own time, and has definitely helped me manage my time wiser. WGU has not asked me to write a post on them, nor am I advertising for them, I'm honestly just happy to be working towards my goals and without bettering myself through education they won't manifest themselves! I'll post about that whole journey another time...

But right now I'm struggling, guys. All last school year I prepared for a Pre-K4 classroom that was to be mine for this next school year, taking courses on Coursera about classroom management, diversity, Pre-K lessons, etc. I read almost any Pre-K blog I could find to get a glimpse into what my world would be once the 2014-2015 school year started.

But today I got some bad news (cue Bad News Barrett music):

There won't BE a Pre-K4 Classroom this school year.

Chalk it up to our community being more interested in VPK or 4C accepted schools. I was devastated when the final decision was made, even though I knew we hadn't gotten the kind of interest we needed to make it possible. Throughout the entire year my administration kept supportive of me but always cautioned me with the reality that it may not come to fruition... they never gave me false hope, they were always honest with me about the fact that it may or may not happen, that it depended on enrollment. Still, I am bummed.

I know that what I want to happen and what Christ sees that I need in my life may be two different things, so I have to be patient and not get discouraged. I'm trying guys, I am.